Beauty lies within

One Of My Weaknesses.

2011-11-23T16:40:00.002+11:00

I tend to over think things. When a situation comes up, I analyse the fuck out of it and I think about what has happened, what could've happened, what would've happened and I create a million scenarios in my head. I think this is why I'm so depressed.

2011-11-23T15:42:00.005+11:00

1. How are you? I never know how to answer this.. Do they want you to say how you really are? I think they just want you to say good. So.. good.
2. Post a picture of yourself. No.
3. Do you ever wish you were someone else? Sometimes I wish I could have what other people have, but I have never wanted to be someone else.
4. What is your entire name? ..Mailin Nguyen.
5. How old are you? 16, 17 in 2012.
6. Your zodiac/horoscope and if you think it fits your personality: Taurus, and I think so.
7. What did you do on your last birthday? I had a party at my friends place with all my close friends. We got our drank on and it was heaps of fun. On another note though, I've never had a really special birthday.. Like one that was like "WOW!" :(
8. What is one thing you would like to accomplish before your next birthday? I want to lose 5kg! Like really bad..
9. What is your hair color? My hair is black and at the tips its brown because my hair is really dead..
10. Have you ever dyed your hair? Yeap, it was a while ago though.
11. What is your eye color?
12. If you could change your eye color, would you? Light Hazel? Idm though, with brown.
13. Do you wear contacts/glasses? I wear glasses! I hate it, life's so difficult LOL.
14. Your opinion about your body and how confortable you are with it: I hate my body, like really hate it. I'm not comfortable at all. Quite insecure. Like really insecure.
15. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? What would you alter about your body? Boob job! I want them to be really round! :D
16. Say 8 facts about your body: Everything is yuck.
17. Do you have any tattoos? Nope, I'll be getting some when I'm older though.
18. Do you have any piercings? Yeap, I have a few ear piercings and my hips are pierced.
19. Left or right handed? Righty.
20. Do you drink? Yeap, on occasions.
21. Do you smoke? Nope.
22. Do you have any pets? Nope, just a lot of fish.
23. Do you have any “rules” about food? No?
24. What talent do you wish you’d been born with? DRAWING! Omgod, life would be complete. I would be able to do everything I want.
25. Are you a bad person? No, I don't believe I am. I try with my whole self to be a good person.
26. Are you nice to everyone? Yeap, unless the treat my otherwise.
27. Has someone ever spread a nasty rumor about you? Not that I know of?
28. Share 2 habits: I'm not sure..
29. What is your ideal career? I wanna be an interior designer or a magazine editor. Or a tattoist, anything practical and creative I guess.
30. Is your life anything like it was two years ago? Nope, I'm a much stronger person now.
31. Do you replay things that have happened in your head? OH, here's a habit. Yes.
32. Say 10 facts about your room: It's quite small, though I have a King size bed which I must say its COMFORTABLE AS FUCK!, all my furniture is white, I have blue walls, one wall is covered with a window, and It's the only place I can be myself. That's all I can say about it.
33. Do you have any phobias? I am scared fuckless of the dark.
34. Ever broken any bones? Nope, mortal!
35. Share something about yourself others might think is weird: .. Idk.
36. Do you have a facebook? If so, would you add the person who sent you this? Yeap. I got this off tumblr..
37. Quote you try to live by: "Keep everyone close to your heart because one day you might wake and up and realize you've lost a diamond while too busy looking for stones." and the one in the side bar are my favs.
38. What’s your favorite band/singer? Too many
39. Dogs or cats? Giraffes :B
40. What are the top five places you wish you could go before you die? Around America, Abu Dhabi, Italy, Paris and Amsterdam!
41. What are four things you can’t live without and why? My family, my friends, my significant other and living essentials. Everything is self explanatory. I'm not really materialistic and all that, I can live without it.
42. Are you more like your mom or your dad? Like my dad :)
43. Do you have any siblings? I have two older brothers.
44. Are you going out of town soon? Maybe in Jan with my lover :D
45. Would you ever smile at a stranger? I always :)
46. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around? Yeap, a few.
47. Who is your most loyal friend? ..Awkward moment when you don't have any loyal friends.
48. Have you ever felt replaced? Nope, I don't need anybody who doesn't need me.
49. Do you ever want to get married? Yes, I cannot wait!
50. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? I don't think so, that's too early.
51. Do you get jealous easily? Not the simple things like, items or looks but the things that actually matter to me.
52. Do you like to dance? DO I?! I dance regularly.
53. What was the first concert/show you attended? Never been to an official one but the school has organised things at school and I've met Jessica Maulboy, Israel Cruz, Justice Crew and a few more.
54. You’re in a tattoo parlor about to get inked. What are you getting done? EVERYTHING!
55. You’re given $10,000… under one condition: You cannot keep the money for yourself. Who would you give it to? To my boyfriend, so he can buy me things, HEHE! I'd give 5k to my parents, spread 2.5k around my friends and boyfee and 2.5k to charity.
56. What is the first curse word that comes to mind? Fuck.
57. Are you a procrastinator or do you get things done early? Procrastinator, I try not to be though :( But if I really need to get something done, I will do it.
58. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about? Nope.
59. Do you hate anyone? No, just a lot of dislike.
60. Are you good at hiding your feelings? You wouldn't understand how good I am at this.
61. Do you care if people talk badly about you? Depends who and if it's true.
62. One thing you’re excited for: The next 3 months are gonna be amazing :)
63. Who is your celebrity crush? TEEEHEEE BRADLEY COOPER!!!!!!!!!!!!

Meow!

2011-11-21T18:02:00.002+11:00

How old will you be in five years? God-damn I will be 21.
Who did you spend at least two hours with today? Idk.. I had school. I spent the whole day with David yesterday though :)
How tall are you? Not sure.. 156cm or somewhere 'round durrr
What do you look forward to most in the next six weeks? Christmas! Boxing Day, NYE, New Years, birthday parties, too much. December's going to be hectic .
What’s the last movie you saw? Me, Myself & Irene
Who was the last person you called? Home.
Who was the last person to call you? My mate, Davo!!
What was the last text message you received? David: "You like that don't ya"
Do you prefer to call or text? Depends who and the situation.
What were you doing at 12am last night? On the phone with bub.
Are your parents married/separated/divorced? Happily Married, with an awesome child.. I must add :)
When is the last time you saw your mom? 5 minutes ago?
What color are your eyes? Brown 'cause I'm Asian yo!
What time did you wake up today? Got up at 7:30AM
What are you wearing right now? Tights and a Mooks shirt.
What is your favorite Christmas song? All I want For Christmas - Mariah & Mistletoe - JB
Where is your favorite place to be? Anywhere as long as I'm with the people I love!
Where is your least favorite place to be? Anywhere scary, dark or anywhere where I'm alone.
Where would you go if you could go anywhere? Anywhere? I would go everywhere! First though, explore America, Abu Dhabi, Rome, Spain, Thailand, Paris!
Where do you think you’ll be in 10 years? Hopefully settled down, married and working my dream job.
What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child? As a child?! A CHILD?! Those mother fuckers are still there! The list of scary things is never ending.
What was the last thing that really made you laugh? Spending time with the boyfran, annoying is always making me laugh :)
How many TVs do you have in your house? 5.
How big is your bed? King size mother fucka!
Do you have a laptop or desktop computer? Desktop
Do you sleep with or without clothes on? Some clothes, minimal though.
What color are your sheets? Floral because I'm a bitch
How many pillows do you sleep with? a fluffly pillow, a medium pillow, angry bird round thing which I use as a pillow.
What is your favorite season? Spring and Winter!
What do you like about fall? I like to step on crunchy leaves :)
What do you like about winter? Snuggle Season!
What do you like about the summer? I don't!
What do you like about spring? Perfect weather!
What cities/towns have you lived in? Camperdown and Cabramatta.
Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet? Shoes?..
Are you a social person? If I'm comfortable around you, I guess so.
What is your favorite restaurant? Thainamics!
42. What is your favorite ice cream? Vanilla and Dark Chocolate!
What is your favorite dessert? Ice-cream!
What is your favorite kind of soup? I don't do soup!
What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwich? I like peanut butter and strawberry jam toasted! Yumm!!!
Do you like Chinese food? Meh.
Do you like coffee? I like to smell it..
How many glasses of water, a day, do you drink on average? Sometimes.. 1 cup?
What do you drink in the morning? Dun drink!
What non-banking related card in your wallet is the most valuable to you? My library card 8) ..
Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed? Roll everywhere!
Do you know how to play poker? Yeap.
Do you like to cuddle? Yeap! Esp. with the aircon on :)
Have you ever been to Canada? I think I went when I was like .. 4? Don't re-call.
Do you have an addictive personality? No.
Do you eat out or at home more often? Mon-Thurs I eat at home and Fri-Sun Dav takes me out to eat :)
What do you miss about highschool, if anything? I still attend.
Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you? David Dang
Do you want kids? Yes, can't wait!
Do you speak any other languages? Viet.
Have you ever gotten stitches? Nope
Have you ever ridden in an ambulance? No, immortal..
Do you prefer an ocean or a pool? Pool!
Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seat? Window
What is your favorite thing to spend money on? I wouldn't know LMAO
Do you wear any jewelry 24/7? Nope, sometimes my Chanel necklace but I HEARD that someone was gonna get me an infinity ring :o Yeah, I'll wear that 24/7! :)
What is your favorite TV show? HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER, watched all seasons like 20 times.
Who is the funniest person you know? Probs Collin! Love that guy :)
Do you sleep with stuffed animals? No.. LOL
What is the main ring tone on your phone? Penguin - Aviici
Do you still have clothes from when you were little? No, donated
What red object is closest to you right now? Smirnoff.
Do you turn off the water while you brush your teeth? Yeap
Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? Got none!
What do you dip a chicken nugget in? Sweet 'n' Sour or Mayo!
What is your favorite food? Thai/Laos and Italian!
What is your usual bedtime? 10-12.
What was the last book you read? My Sisters Keeper I think
Do you read the newspaper? Nope
Do you have any magazine subscriptions? Nope
Do you dance in the car? Fistpump!!
Who is in the picture frame closest to you? Me & My brothers!
What was the last note you scribbled on a piece of paper? Major ideas
What is your favorite candle scent? Chocolate!
What is your favorite board game? Monopoly, only one I've played
What is the longest you have ever camped out in a tent? 2 Hours..
Who was the last person to do something extra special for you? David! On Friday 11/11/11 he told me I wasn't gonna see him and I was all sad 'n dat then after school he told me to come over and when I got there, there was a fake rose on the doorstep and he opened the door and our song started playing and he was standing there in a tux and a bouquet!

Then on sat, I got dressed up and went over his house at 5PM and he told me to close my eyes and he took my into the house. I turned around and opened my eyes the whole hallway to his room was lit up with candles and rose petals were every where on the ground and he was in a button up and a bow-tie with another bouquet and he asked me out, I said no.. LOL Because a few months back I wrote him a letter for whenever he asked me out and I wanted to be seated first, I didn't tell him why I had said no and he got nervous and that hehe. We then walked into his room and there were candles and rose petals everywhere and a cute little dinner table with everything set up like those fancy restaurants, we sat down and after a while I gave him the letter because he was confused I said no. By the end of the letter he was teary and he stood up and gave me a hug and kiss :). And when we were ready he brought in a meal he cooked himself, it wasn't good but he tried and that's all that counts HAHA. So yeah.. Thats how we started :) Again..

Sincerely yours, Mae.

2011-11-16T20:15:00.002+11:00

Dear Ex Boyfriend/girlfriend: I hope the best for you and the future. I'm thankful for all you have taught me.
Dear Future/current Child: I hope you are as awesome as me! I hope you learn from right and wrong and stand up for what you believe. I hope you find happiness and fulfil your dreams.
Dear Crush/significant Other: You make me angry, sad, frustrated and furious but at the end of the day, despite all our problems, you bring me happiness more than anything and I love you, even your fathead :)
Dear Bestfriend: Tina, I hate you so much. Hehe, seriously, you're annoying, judgemental, and cocky and all that bad stuff.. but I still love you for who you are and what you do for me. I will always be there to take your shit and support you, even if you make the wrong decisions.
Dear Mum: Sigh.. Couldn't you be more of a mum to me. You literally do nothing all day and I do everything. You do one thing and you complain and say I do nothing. You don't talk to me or anything and you never support me. I know one thing for sure, that I'll always be there for my children and never be like you. Even though you're not there, I will always love you.
Dear Dad: I love you so much. I admire what you do for our family and how strong you are. I love how you are so kind-hearted and caring. I admire you and I hope that I grow up to be like you.
Dear Future Me: Hi! I hope you found happiness and are happy! Living in a comfy house with the one you love and going to a job that you love everyday. Never forget who you are.

Bored..

2011-11-14T20:23:00.002+11:00

Want any piercings? Tongue and smiley! :o
Best friend? Tina and Miguel :)
Relationship status: In a relationship
Biggest turn offs: People who do drugs!
Favorite Movie: Matilda!
Someone you miss: David Huynh!
A fact about your personality: I am who I am, not driven by anything or anyone.
What I hate most about myself: My fae, my body!
What I love most about myself: That I'm independent.
What I want to be when I get older: Some practical art thing..
My relationship with my sibling(s): Close with my older brother, hardly see my 2nd eldest brother.
My relationship with my parents: Close to my dad, enemies with my mum!
My idea of a perfect date: Anywhere, aslong as I get to spend time with them alone.
A description of the girl/boy I like: The boy I like: David Huynh. 1 thing I can say , looks may be deceiving. His made mistakes but at the end of the day how he makes me feel overtakes the bad. His caring, sweet and funny. I can be myself around him and we share a lot of laughs. He can effortlessly bring a smile to my face and we can never stay mad at each other for too long.
A description of the person I dislike the most: They should get their shit together. All I gotta say.
A reason I’ve lied to a friend: Only time I've lied to them about something was when I jigged school LOL.
What I hate the most about school: The hours :o
What my last text message says: "Almost there. Got a LILO and stitch" .. Loser, he means a stitch from walking LOL.
What words upset me the most: Disappointed, selfish.
What words make me the best about myself: Genuine!
A wish that I’ve wished for repeatedly on 11:11: For him to fark awf LOL dont wish anymore.
Where I would like to live: America!
One of my insecurities: My body..
Who I wish I could be: No one.
Where I want to be right now: With David :(

Halloween Party!

2011-11-09T17:29:00.005+11:00

Tomorrow. Everything that seems important now, won't be anymore.

2010-12-18T17:02:00.002+11:00

1. What happened today? If it was the last day of your life, how satisfied would you be with your final hours?
Literally nothing happened today! If it was the last day of my life, I would've died a sad man. For the last 3 hours I've been sitting here doing jack shit.. So yeah, I'd be pretty bummed if today was my last day. Like.. I have to write goodbye letters to everyone y'know?

Fail..

2010-12-05T12:03:00.003+11:00

So much for blogging! I got lazy after the second post and have nothing to write about. So yeah.. atm it's the first week of holidays! And it is so boring. I've been so unproductive. I can feel holiday weight coming on :( I hope next week is more exciting, gonna try and get out and shit. And I'm tryna start posting again, since it's holidays and I have nothing better to do.

I never thought I'd fall in love in the club. But now I've seen you boy, I can't get enough. So someone please let me know, who's that guy who just walked in the club.

2010-11-01T17:17:00.002+11:00

hai guyz. I'm gonna do the 30 Day Tumblr challange here! :) Going to do 2 today because the questions are pointless.

Day 1: The person you like and why you like them:
I won't say who because I don't want to ruin our friendship.
I like him because he makes me laugh and I feel at ease when I talk to him. Our conversations just flow and I don't even need to try.
Day 2: A famous person you've been compared to: N/A.

The truth is, I'm one of those few people who actually care when I ask "What's wrong?". The only problem is that usually I have no idea what to say afterwards or how to make it better. I try not to use phrases like "That sucks" or "I'm sorry", but I still can never find the right words to say. But I promise, I'll always listen. I guess that's all I can do.

Better in time

2010-10-31T15:48:00.002+11:00

Hi guys! It's been so long since I've been here. A lot of things have changed and not all things are the same.

The previous post: Yes, it took quite a long time but things are okay now. I don't think or dream about you daily anymore, just once in a while you'll come to my mind. I don't feel that way anymore, and speaking out defiantly helped me.

Well.. as I was saying.. Things aren't the same. Everyone I use to be close to, aren't close to me anymore. I miss how everything use to be and how everyone use to be. And so here I am, talking to my blog :S

Oh btw, if your hear to judge and investigate my life, gtfo. And if you think my post are attention seeking or pity seeking, it's not. This is simply a place for me to speak my mind, because I can't orally.

Until next time, bye!

But without you here, time stands still.

2010-01-01T14:57:00.005+11:00

Goodbye 2009, hello 2010. A new year so this means a fresh start. And I can’t do that unless I get this out, I can’t keep hiding it anymore.
I love you, I always have.

I relied on time to change my feelings but it’s been more than 2 years, and 2 years is enough time, a long time. So why do I feel this way? Why do I feel the same? Does time really make a change?

It’s been a while since you left me, you’re going on living your life while this still haunts me. I don’t know why I can’t let go. You made me happy, the happiest I’ve ever been and I’ve only start to realize. But it’s a “little” too late. I miss how we spent time together at the park, how we laid there in silence and nothing would disturb us, until you ruined the moment with one of your stupid moves. I loved it. I love it, from our first conversation to our last kiss. I remember it all. How you asked me out till every last bit. You probably won’t even see this, and if you do you wouldn’t even be bothered reading it. But I’m hoping you do, even if I only get a “wdf.”. I just really need you to know how I feel. And all of you are probably thinking “look at this overly obsessed bitch.”, I don’t give a fuck alright. So unless you know me or you’ve been in my shoes, stfu.

My friends are always telling me to move on, to give up. But why? Why should I? They don’t see you the way that I see you. They don’t look into your eyes and see the world. Why would they understand? They can’t possibly imagine what it means to look at your best friend and see all their hopes and dreams come true. I wish for once, just once, they could walk a mile in my shoes. But they wouldn’t need to walk that far, they would just take one step and suddenly, they would take back every bit of ‘getting over you’ advice they had ever given me and realize that moving on or giving up is simply not an option.

I appreciate everything, and boy you couldn’t have loved me better. I could go on forever but I’m gonna leave it at this. And I’m sorry if this freaks you out. ROFL.

I love you Andy, I always have. 240507.

2009 was a hectic year. So much has happened and lots of things have changed.But I’m ready, 2010 will hopefully be better than 2009.
So here’s to a new start. Happy new year’s everyone, may a good year lay ahead of you.

“A good friend is someone who is there for you when they would rather be somewhere else”

2009-12-29T19:14:00.003+11:00

Happy 15th Birthday Monia Nguyen.
Today, I was meant to go shopping with Hang but she cancelled on me, because she "wasn't allowed to go", LOL. I helped my mum cook.. cos my dad was hogging the comp. She needed to buy something so she pulled me along to the shops with her. I saw hair ties, they were like $5, so I went behind my mum and put it in my pants, she turned back and saw me. She gave me dirties and on our way back she gave me the biggest lecture. So now, if I get caught taxing, I'm gonna die! Fk, so sad. ROFL.
a little update for you guys.
Friday 25th: Had a Christmas party with some close friends.
Saturday 26th: Not sure, ROFL.
Sunday 27th: Shopping with Xochilt, Peter a) and Peter Le. Bought 2 singlets, taxed a shirt and makeup. Then went to Anna's party.
Monday 28th: Went to watch Avatar with brother Michael.

Past.

2009-12-23T08:39:00.003+11:00

sarrp. sorry I haven't been blogging lately. I've give you an update of what has been happening in the last few days.

On sunday, in the morning, me and Xochilt went shopping. Bought stuff, ate noodle box, then headed back to cabra. Met Hang, Richard, Jenny, Pk, Michael there and we headed to Richards. We drank redlabel shots, I drank like 9 and a half, one after another. I passed out, LOL. I vomited like 3 times. My head was being a bitch! It hurt so much. Went home around 11PM.

On monday morning, I was blessed with a hangover! It was hell, my head was doing me in bro! Then I had a dentist appointment.. Great.. I put elastics on, and it's killing me man! Fark! I slept till like 7PM. It was better, but still there.

Then on tuesday, it was gone! thank god. I had an interview at McDonald's and I was shitting it. The manager laughed at me :( But I got the job! :D Yay. I'm still screaming inside, roflmao. I went by to Xochilts place to get something, then I walked home in the beaming sun! D: After a while Xochilt came over to play Monopoly.

Wednesday, Hang and Linda came over to get ready. We walked to cabra @ 1PM and I went with Xochilt and Nada to Liverpool. The others went with their boyfee's. It was fun, alot of laughs. I got freebies :D Went back to Cabra @ 7PM to get Hang. We went to Xochilts house, had a little swim and walked to my house. We decided to go stealing stuff from peoples gardens, ROFLMAO. We got stuff, and Hang chucked a egg at a dog, and someone came out, we shit ourselves and ran for our lives, LOL. It was funny, Xochilt went home @ 10. Me and Hang ate and she went home @ 11.

I need to scream my lungs out.

2009-12-19T21:22:00.001+11:00

Eh.
Fucking oaf. You go out and eat and don't get me anything then when I bring food home you ask wheres yours, YOU ALREADY ATE YA FUCKHEAD. I give you my fucking burger and your like "I'll remember this" WDF! So, I accidently got the wrong drink for my other brother and he fking rages at me like a fking bitch.
NOW I'M FUCKING HUNGRY, I DIDN'T FKING EAT ANYTHING ALL FKING DAY!!!!! $#@%$@! AND I fking have PMS, FARRRRRRRRRK! And no, there's nothing to eat downstairs, NOTHING.

And you, your. a. fucking. dickhead.
I swear to. fucking. god.

HOT OR WHAT?! Omg, I love this.

2009-12-18T22:51:00.005+11:00

Robert Pattinson and Taylor Lautner.

Met alot of boys in my life but they're not like you.

2009-12-18T12:15:00.006+11:00

baby you the best of the best, you the greatest.
Goodmorning! I woke up with back pains and cramps, and I was on the floor.. I don't know how I got there.. Maybe I fell? Well anyways, yesterday @ 3PM, hang came over and we headed to Xochilt's to go swimming. At first I was trying to tan, but the water looked so nice so I jumped in with Hang. Xochilt was just laying there sleeping. Later Richard came and bought us Sushi! Yayers. My cravings gone, been craving sushi for like a week now. Hang went to spend time with Richard so I was in the pool by myself for an hour while Xochilt watched me, roflmao. Later on, Xochilt decided to jump in. And we were just being idiots. It was funny. When it got darkish, Richard went latenight and Hang joined us again. Xochilts mom made us hot dogs, it was so nice! I was starving, LOL. Then at around 9:50PM I went home. Took a shower and went on net with my mobile. Then this morning I woke up on the floor :|

Your so "TAKE IT TO THE HEART" these days!

"why does mr.perfect always have to be your bestfriend?"

2009-12-15T17:27:00.002+11:00

because you live, my world has twice as many stars in the sky.
I want to be more with you but, I don't want to destroy our friendship.
Why is this happening now? I felt for you for so long now, why am I losing control now? I don't want it to be like this. I can't stand not talking to you anymore.
You make me unbelievably happy, you make me laugh so much. And when I see you, how can I just not help but smile. You make my life so much better.
That night, when I was in your arms, it felt .. utterly right. I was right where I wanted to be, and I wouldn't trade that moment for anything.

I love you.
I can't tell nobody, so I'll just scream it in my head.

thats fked bro!

2009-12-15T16:56:00.006+11:00

let's just say,
it was fun at the moment, but everything's fucked now.
13th Sunday: Jenny's birthday party.
Me and Xochilt went Parra in the morning to buy clothes for jenny's then went back to hers to get ready. When we got there we ate. And after we finished we all went to the park to drink. Everybody got wasted, it was funny. When It was getting dark, I literally ran back because I needed to pee. I ate more and drank beer. It fucked me up. After that.. I roled down the hill like a million times, and now I have all splinters from bindies in me, like everywhere! Bloody kills. I made out with someone.. It was an accident I swear. I then ran down the hill because I needed to vomit, I just gagged a few times, I walked back up laughing because I didn't vomit, then I felt something coming up so I ran back down and vomited.. ROFL. I was so chunky! I apologized to Jenny a few times :( Then Xochilt's dad gave me a lift home. I felt so tired but I couldn't sleep, so I talked to myself for like an hour. I woke up at 3, and was like wdf. And a mossie bit my finger! I swear I almost bit it off. It was fun, but fked up!

Boring!

2009-12-10T17:15:00.004+11:00

Boy, when I pull back them sheets and I climb on top of you. boy you gonna think, you gonna think I invented sex.
T'day, we had an Awards ceremony, it was so boring! I fell asleep half way. Can't they just give the awards in their own time? Seriously, no one wants to watch people get awards, no one! Unless were all getting one, that's a different story.
Well, someone mistakenly took my make-up on Saturday, well, I think because I can't find it anywhere in my house. And my eyelash remover, which I got on the day. And my foundation I got like 3 days earlier. I'm so sad.. :(
I'm still thinking of what I'm gonna wear. And I need to buy heels for Jenny's party, or I'm gonna feel left out..

Beaming like a motherfucker!

2009-12-08T20:06:00.005+11:00

Kick off your stilettos and fuck me in the backseat,
fuck me in the backseat.
I put on a fake tan yesterday, and, It's all fked up, LMAO. My ankles are black like a mother fucker. And on one ankle there's a drip mark, LMAO. I was awfully tired today, I don't know why. In fact, I still am. School lagged like a mother fucker. We had that Sports Award ceremony, It was so boring and bloody hot in there! Walked Michael's way home, he agreed if I walked with him, he'd come to Jenny's party. After I got home, I went for a nap. And around 6, I went on net.

I'm just playin' wit' you, LOL.

2009-12-07T18:12:00.007+11:00

Hit me with a text, let me know you're home alone.
Let's get freaky with that camera phone.

5 sleeps till Jenny & Radmilla's birthday bash.
9 sleeps till holidays!
18 sleeps till CHRISTMAS.
19 sleeps till Boxing day.
22 sleeps till Monia's party.
25 sleeps till a new year!
I'm lovin' life atm. Everythings how I want it too be, and it couldn't be better. I've got so much energy! I know I don't have everything, but the happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.
I can't wait for Jenny's party. It's gonna be gewdddd :) Well, I hope, LOL.

NINETY-NINE PROBLEMS.

2009-12-05T07:12:00.008+11:00

I have 99 problems but the "boy" ain't one.
hey ma'fka's. It's 7:15AM and I'm awake because I had a terrible dream. My braces fell out..
WHY DO I KEEP HAVING THIS DREAM? I shit bricks when I have it.
Well it's the girls night in this arvo, I'm looking forward too it. ATM, the sky is cloudy, that's good cause I think were gonna be in my room and it won't be hot. Hangs gonna come over at 10:30 or something and help me buy the food. It's a celebrity dress up theme, and I'm going as Ugly Betty or this mask thing, not sure yet.
Lately, I've been really happy, I don't know why. I have all this energy, and I just do whatever I want. But Tina thinks I'm retarded.. I'm lovin' it!

Tonight's gonna be a good night!
tonight, was, a good night!

It was so much fun. Hang came over at 11AM, and I laughed at her. We lagged it till 1PM, then went to buy the stuff, bought fake lashes, all the food we needed, and walked back with a heavy trolley.. We set the stuff up and called the girls too see where they were at. At 4PM, they all came and we got ready. We feasted on the chocolate fountain and pizza. Took photos while they were getting the alki. They came back around 7:40PM and we went to the park too drink, we danced, and danced and sang, then @ 8:40PM we went back to my house and played twister, fail, everybody collapsed on each other, LOL. I went crazy and ran up and down the street a few times, alone. LMAO. We then played dare.. Oh my god.. LMAO. It was funny. All this girl on girl action. Pashing, licking, Xochilt smelling my vagina, LMAO and her giving me like 3 hickeys, LOL, we all ran up and down the street topless, LOL, I flashed my bum.. Throughout the whole night, my undies flashed about only 200 times.. :@
Overall, it was really fun and funny, best night ever! Slutville always.
Jenny and Radmilla's birthday next week, can't wait.
Pictures: http://www.facebook.com/home.php?ref=home#/photo.php?pid=799443&id=1386247174

Instead of crashin', boy I'm thankin' you.

2009-12-02T15:03:00.003+11:00

I'll be fine, even if you leave. Oh, I don't need you anymore.
Yeah it's all because of you, that I have the strength I do.

You were born on 3 May 1995, Wednesday.
POSITIVE : Good in relationship, know how to appreciate people around her. Not selfish. Always put others instead of herself. Open minded. In finance, good at making money. Love at first sight, and ready to sacrifice everything for love. Sexually speaking, she's good and romantic.

NEGATIVE : Revengeful. If someone hurt her, she'll return the favor badly. Bad at keeping secret, not a good apprentice. Her decision aren't balance, lack in experience. Stubborn, not easily trust on others. Only certain people know how to treat her. Bad at spending money.
TRUE OR WHAT?! App on facebook.

Today, was another bludge. Oh, I stole the change room lock and chained the backgate to the fence, ROFL :$

I LOVE YOU, 459223!

2009-12-01T19:01:00.008+11:00

you made me want you oh so bad it hurt, but boy, in case you haven't heard.
I used to be love drunk but now I'm hungover.
Love you forever, forever is over!

What a lovely way to start the day! I had the maddest dream ever! I'll never forget it.
It made me smile all morning :$
T'day was practically bludge. Didn't do anything. At sport lunch, the boys and girls were trying to make a human pyramid and it was fail. It wasn't my fault I kept making everyone fall! LOL. I fell on my ass and got a hole in my hand! Then I stole jelly from the canteen! I swear to god everything taste better when its free LOL. Watched a movie for sport in the lecture theater. Then I went to Cabra. Went Woolies and taxed stuff. I got new make-up! Yay. And, I should really start planning the girls night in, now. LOL. Well, today was a good day overall. Well, I'm off to eat curry! :D

Hello, I miss you quite terribly.

2009-11-30T13:53:00.006+11:00

Yesterday was perfect! It was so fun and pretty! The weather was perfect. There was a beach and the was a lagoon few steps away. The lagoon was awesome! The water was warm and still and the was a tall rock where people did flips and stuff off it. Then we went to this other place. Their were people kayaking and riding their boats, it was packed. Me and my brother went to snorkel, I went in for a bit then out of no wear, I think, was a sting ray! I literally pissed my pants! I quickly ran out, LOL. Then my brother told me to go to the deep end, he said there were none of them there. I saw fishes and stuff! Overall, it was fun! We took alot of pictures but fk that! LOL. Not at school today, I really can't be bothered for that shit anymore! All we do is play games and watch movies, and the teachers don't even notice.

I love you! Is it that hard to see?
I just really want you to know, but we don't even talk anymore! It's so hard. But, I'm never giving up on you. I can't anyway, I know because I've tried. I love you and I miss you terribly!
Baby, one day we'll be great! one day..
and for you, you've changed, alot. YA FK. I miss you, the old one.

I'm excited :)

2009-11-28T23:52:00.000+11:00

I put the pain away and let it slide. I forgive and forget it and then you promise me I won't regret it. But I do, it's not right. Because I turn around and let it slide and I'm crazy for thinking that someday you'll change things when you keep on crossin' the line.
So when I know things are uh-oh, I'll help you out 'cause you know that it's fo-sho, And every time you feel a kinda so-so, just know after the rain there is a rainbow.
This is how I'm feeling right about now.

Well, tomorrow.. I'm going to the beach with my brother and 2 of my cousins, Jenny and Tina. Were gonna go snorkeling and kayaking. I'm excited! I have a feeling the weathers gonna fk up, just hope the suns out :)
I sent out the invites for next week! Just need to get the money and food now :)

I'm fine! :@

2009-11-27T16:26:00.008+11:00

If we stop for a minute, just to talk for a minute, baby you and I can somehow try to keep how it use to be. Change is unneeded. Can you be more understanding? All of this is killing me.

I love my room! It's so pretty when I wake up on a blue sky day. Everything is so blue! It feels so .. I don't know. LIKE AN ORGASM, LMAO. You should wake up in my bedroom one day and have an orgasm too, HAHA.

Well, I need a new facebook hp! Help me choose. Blogspot, makes the photos fade. So yeah. Click on them.

You make me mad!

2009-11-26T15:57:00.005+11:00

It's not how many times life beats you down, that makes you who you are , it's how many times you get back up to take it on again.

I miss you so bad.. but you've moved on and your happy. I still love you but, somehow you make me mad! Your so mean when you want to be. You always turns thing around and make me the bad guy.

Have fun tonight..

I really, really thought this day would never come. But here I am.. once again.

HAHAHHAHA

2009-11-24T21:35:00.004+11:00

What the fuck happen to you? Seriously.

SO MUCH FOR THAT" I'M SURE" BULLSHIT, once again, I TOLD YOU SO!
But y'know what? I just straight don't give a fk :)
I loved you, and I'm never turning back.
SO, SHUT THE FARRRRK UP,
AND GET THE FARRRRK OUT!

Dirty foot massage..

2009-11-23T17:07:00.011+11:00

Yesterday..
My family went out to eat for my brothers birthday at Yum Cha.. I wanted to go somewhere different but my brother felt like Asian food.. LOL. We ate then me and my brother went to go buy snacks. Went home, and watched The Hangover, I've already watched it, but this time I laughed even harder, I think because I understood it this time, LOL. Me and my other brother went to woolys around 8, to buy food. I used all my saved up money to buy a Cosmo :'( I know Cosmo is only $7.40, but I took forever to save that!

Today..
I woke up at 8:40AM, FK. I called Jenny to tell the teacher I went uniform shop. Bro she falls for it every time! Haven't been to roll call in like 3 weeks, LOL. And I always come late for some reason, even though I wake up at 7AM. I had a shower and asked parents for a lift. Had PASS, Had to write 500 lines, but only wrote 100, LOL. Collin was talking about this thing, it was hilarious as! Just hearing about it made me crack up it's the link below.. Then had double Geo in lecture theater. Michael gave me a massage. With his feet.. he was wearing socks.. because I took his shoes.. ROFL. Disgusting! What a peasant!

click! Fking HILARIOUS!

CALL THE AMBULANCE BRO, I'M FKING STUCK ON A ELEVATOR.

I'm sleeping!

2009-11-21T21:05:00.005+11:00

T'day, at 4:30AM, david called me.. I was so sleepy, we talked for a bit, then something happen. So I went back to sleep, and at 9:30 my brother woke me up to go shopping.. I was having such a good sleep. I then went and got ready. And we went to Parramatta, shopped. He bought a semi-formal shirt for his birthday outing tonight. Then we went to Red Yard to buy him new shoes, but they were all ugly. Went home, cleaned room. Looked for Christmas stuff, but after looking everywhere daddy told me he threw them out :( Watched the rest of gossip girl! Omg, the threesome :o AND OMG, I LOVE CHUCK BASS! His so fking hot, I swear to god. When he said,

"When you forget your Blair Waldorf, remember I'm Chuck Bass and I love you."

I jizz'd my pants. And now, I'm here.

Well, I'm currently planning a girls night in :D Gonna have pretty invites, drinks, formal dinner and a chocolate fondue :D Yeah, bothered, but I want to do something fun and out of the ordinary.
I still don't know what to do! I want you to be with her, idk why. It makes so much more sense you guys being together.
A n d y e a h.

Well, cya!
Sincerely yours, mae.

Love is like war: Easy to begin but hard to end.

2009-11-18T17:49:00.002+11:00

You think your a joke to me? You think I would wait for you while you go out with her? You think I would go through all that pain for nothing. You know what? I give up.
I don't ask much from you, but I do so much for you and you don't know it. Don't you understand? I don't control how I feel. I force, and force myself out of this feeling, but it won't go away. I lie to myself, and say I don't love him anymore. I stay up till morning asking myself why I can't get over it. I am trying, I've been trying, even before I met you. But when you came into my life, all I could think about is you. When your happy, I'm happy. But when your sad, angry, or pissed of, I'm sad. And when I'm sad I just miss him, how everything was so right, and nothing got in our way. I wanted you to be there for me, help me. If you just told me everything would be okay, you'd be the only one.

2 days ago, you got angry at me, I don't know why, when I called you didn't pick up, I messaged you and you didn't reply. I asked you over net, and you said nothing. Well, I got sad.
My friend asked me to come and eat for his birthday, and of course I couldn't say no. But I was suppose to meet up with you that afternoon, I called you and said I'll come pick you up after I finish eating, you asked what time and I said I didn't know, and you hanged up. I got sad. I then went to eat for my friends birthday at Cabra, and what a coincidence (I haven't seen him or talked to him in a while) I see him on that particular day. And that's how it all came back.

I swear I can't control it.
Worst of all, I really do love you. You know I'm trying, but you don't appreciate that, so I give up.
I tried, mae.

Why?..

2009-11-17T18:42:00.004+11:00

I'm over you, then I'm not. I see you, and I swear my whole world stops, but you keep walking away, I don't understand. Why is this happening to me?.. Just loving you makes me happy. I don't want too, but I do.
You honestly take my breathe away.
Forever yours, mae.

I love you tinky winky!

2009-11-16T17:23:00.003+11:00

Yesterday..
We, me, xochilt, tina, peter and nathan, went Livo. We were meant to go Ice-skating but I came 1 hour late and missed our session. LOL. So we decided to watch a movie. We went around, taxed some stuff, then headed to greater union to watch a movie. But I cbb'd so we went to bum around again. We went to Myers to tax Mossimo bra's, we got 'em and went to the change rooms, but when we got there, noticed that their were those security things on it, fml. LOL. Went to toys'r'us and stole a whoopy cushion, ROFL. Xochilt put it in my ass.. We then decided to go back to cabra, to Xochilt's house. We arrived at Cabra and I went to see David for a little bit, omg, HE LOOKS LIKE A TELETUBBY, I swear to god, ROFLMAO. Sorry bebe. Tina went home and we then went to Xochilts place. We played cards, yugioh, tarzoo's. Then I put my hands in the poll and layed down pretending to swim. I heard Xochilt and Peter planning something so I put my phone in my pants incase they chucked me in. Peter came to me and grabbed me while xochilt took the phone out. I then knew what was gonna happen, so I offered to go in. LOL. We all jumped in and swam till 9:30 then we ordered pizza. Came home at 10. and got grounded, LOL. But now, I'm gonna miss out shopping and new moon with david :(

Today..
Today, I came late too school. Went to get a late note and the teacher said I was a messenger today I was like "pheww, no arvo". But I never go anyway, so meh. It was so tiring walking around in the sun. but last 3 periods was just sitting. Monia was messenger with me :) Now I'm at home waiting for parents to bring me back McDonalds. All I ate today was half a yoghurt I got in the morning but I got to the office and had to throw it away.

Well, bye! Sorry for the long post :(
Sincerely yours, mae.

I'm back, again!

2009-11-14T14:35:00.004+11:00

yeah, hello.
I'm gonna try blog every week from now :S LOL. Well, I recently got my braces.. yeah. (10th November 2009) They look dorky and they're baby blue. They make my lips stick out like its swolen or something and the pain is unexplainable! It's so annoying too, have too brush your teeth like after every meal. Well, it'll be off in 2 years .. :( 10th November 2011 :D And I'll have pretty teeth :) Oh, and, the day before that, I got my glasses --" Now I'm Ugly Betty! Their D&G, picture of them below.

Today: I went shopping with my brother. I got a new Mossimo tank top and new Rubi flats. He got a guess shirt and a new Tissot $800 watch. I'm jealous :( .. I saw this really nice DKNY watch, $300 :O Soon.. I want new jeans! hard out, I need it too. Gonna ask my other brother :D Doubt he'll get it! But its worth a try. Well, atm, I'm home alone *giggle. Brother went to get subway, hope he gets something for me! :D
Well, I'll be back tomorrow :) If I remember.
AND WHERE IS DAVID?! I miss my baby :(
Forever yours, mae.

Window Shopping!

2009-10-04T13:57:00.002+11:00

Msn: Patrick, Andy, David, Michael.
Mood: :$
Music: So cold - Stevie Hoang.
If I could do it all over again, I would go back to the time we were friends. Making love over and over again. And I wouldn't let go 'cause without you boy my heart is so cold.

Went window shopping yesterday @ Parra with Xochilt and Hang. It was fun! Y'know how it was window shopping? Was meant to window shop for a dress and heels for a wedding, but I ended up using my glasses money on a dress :'( And I wasn't suppose to use that money on anything else. So now I'm in big shit, unless I find money to replace that. FML, LOL. I'll update this post later with pics.

STORMS VS. EELS T'DAY.
Who's gonna watch it? Hopefully Eels will win :( But their both good, so I don't know. Having a BBQ just for that. Radmilla still owes me $10!

Sincerely yours, Mae.

Doggies got smashed!

2009-09-25T23:41:00.003+10:00

Msn: Appearing offline. (Phone)
Mood: Happy.
Music: Kris Allen - Live like were dying.
Turn it all around or throw it all away. We gotta tell ‘em that we love ‘em, while we got the chance to say.

WOOO, THE EELS WON! yay, I'm so happy.
T'day was a bludge. We had scripture with the year 8's for 2 periods. Fuck, their annoying, LOL. Then we had English and history, just played games. Last period, Ms. Paras offered us some cake. So we went to get it, it was soooo nice. We came late to science and we had a sub. Oh my god, he was so funny. We kept teasing him, and he sent Nada out, LOL. He wrote a complaint in the roll for Mr. Luong and we laughed. Because Mr. Luong won't do anything about it. Then after school I saw David, I stayed with him for a while then went home. Played comp. Then went to get McDonald's. Came home and watched the footy with my brother. In the beginning he was full laughing at me 'cause eels were losing then Eels started scoring then I started laughing in his face. Then he went out, then Xochilt called. I laughed at her too. I started screaming when the Eels won :D I'm so happy! Radmilla owes me $10 now.

Happy Birthday Ms. Paras!
Sincerely yours, mae.

"it's leaking!"

2009-09-23T19:53:00.002+10:00

Msn: Evan, Patrick, David, Hang.
Mood: Normal?
Music: Jordin Sparks - Road to paradise.
I've fallen head over heels for you, and I just want you in my arms, again. And when I'm with you, it's like no one else is here and I just want you near. getting to wet, :( then I found out it was

Did you see the sandstorm this morning?! It was crassssy. I thought I was dreaming this morning when I saw it. So I went back to sleep, and I dreamt that my dad told me "don't worry, don't need to go school." So then I slept. Then I woke up at 8 realizing It was a dream. And school started early t'day, 8:25AM. I got there around 9:00AM and went to get a late note. I had lunch detention, half lunch and a quarter. After school had arvo, went there, but decided to just go home. Then went to do X-ray. Then I ate McDonald's! :D Had to beg for it :( Now .. I'm here.

I GOT MY PERIODS T'DAY. Yeah, I was in class and I thought I was just wet or something, over the teacher, LOL, jokes. But then it got toooo wet. After a while I realised it was my period :'( I told Tina and she laughed at me D:

Sincerely yours, mae.

Tell me how you feel.

2009-09-21T19:21:00.003+10:00

Msn: Xochilt, Hang, David & Richard
Mood: Not happy.
Music: Beholder ft. Mike & Max - Beating Of The Drums.
Can you feel it, like I feel it?

So, I don't know how you feel. Have you moved on? Because it seems like it. And I don't know what to do.. or say. I don't like this! AT ALL. I tell myself I don't care, I tell everyone else I don't give a fuck about it anymore, but I know, I still really do care.

Sincerely yours, mae.

Needs, wants, and do!

2009-09-19T14:56:00.004+10:00

Mood: Bored.
Msn: Appearing Offline.
Music: Matt Palmer - Come back to me.
All my boys they tell me to leave you alone. Now that you're gone, just let you go.

Well, I'm back! Again.. I'll be gone, again, when this gets boring. I have a Word Blog too, so I've been using that instead of blogspot. It's kinda private though. It's on my laptop. We recently got our new laptops from school. It's mini, red. And ugly. But it's handy I guess.

So I'm gonna focus more on school and shit. Be good girl, once again :( I've planned out a daily routine.

WEEKDAYS:
6:40AM: Alarm goes off.
7:15AM: Wake up, get in the shower.
7:40AM: Do hair and make up.
8:15AM: Go school.
8:55AM: Arrive @ school. Yeah, idk, this always happens. I lag getting out of the house or something. LOL.
8:55AM-3:15PM: School.
3:40PM: Arrive home.
3:40-4:15PM: Eat + Watch tv.
4:15-4:40PM: Clean house.
4:40-5:30PM: Outside, basketball+exercise. Yes, exercise.
5:30- 8:00PM: Net.
7:30PM: Go do homework + study.
8:30PM: My time :D

Yeah, planned ay. I'm gonna try to keep my daily routine like that. Except for weekends. Weekends = Sleep.

Well, I've been tring to save up lately, LOL. Fail. I've been giving Hang $5 every morning so she can hold for me. Thats been going on for one week now. But there's only $6, LMAO. 'Cause I've been taking money back, cos I get hungry.

Well I'll be back tomorrow to update things. This is enough blogging for today.

Sincerely yours, mae.

eshayz.

2009-08-16T11:47:00.003+10:00

Friday: Did the usual's. Hang and Xochilt came over after school. We ordered pizza and we played sing star while we waited. Then we ate and watched Zac and Miri make a porno. We went online and youtubed weird things, masturbating cats, sleep walking dogs, larvae eatting. :( . etc. Then we went outside to the gym, and shot hoops. and 'danced' some dr zoydberg stuff, roflmao! We wemt upstairs agian and went on msn. then my brother drove them home around ten.

Saturday: Brother woke me up around 10AM to go buy some stuff with him. Came home waited for hang. Couldn't wait any longer so called Linda to come pick me up. We headed to the park. Huy, Peter a and Richard were already there and like 5 minutes later Michael came. We hanged there for a bit then Hang came. Then Johnny and David came. Then Michaels friends came, then David, Michael and Johnny went to esh. Stayed there till like 3 then we walked to macccers through the bush, fking peter didn't turn and we walked all the way into the bush. then we ended up going to hungry jacks! They ate. I sniffed salt, it hurt :( ate ice cream and went back to the park. Then me and Hang went back to my place, ate hotpot and her mum picked her up. OH DID I MENTION WE DREW DICKS ALL OVER HUY? :) I drew one on his ass *giggle. Went on net and david broke up with me :( so sad.

Well yesturday was a funny day until I went online.. had a sook before i went to bed and had a sook when I woke up. Now I'm here. Don't know what I'm gonna do t'day. Needa buy something for dads b'day. which is on tuesday. i'm off blogspot. bye.

sincerely yours, mae.

I'm back.

2009-08-13T17:15:00.003+10:00

Hello. roflmao!
I'm gonna start blogging again, everyday, If I can.

Well recently my dad painted the whole house again, and yeah, every things different. My room is now blue. And the staircase is pinkish-purple..

A few days ago my brother went Melbourne for a week and when he came back he was like 'I got you a gift but I left it in my friends car." I was like, in my head, 'Wow, he got me a gift.' So then 2 days later, I came home from school, went to my room and was getting out of my school clothes, then i saw a hair straightener and sing star abba on top my my cupboard/ tv thing. I was like " .. :|", then I dropped everything and got it down. Yayayyayayay, finally got a hair straightener.

Anyways, today was a typical day, I woke up around 7AM. then went in the shower, I think I was sleeping in the shower or something coz when I came out of the shower it was like 815. I got to school around 850, just in time. Had lunch detention, didn't go. Then had arvo for like 20minutes. Walked with Evan home to his 'house'. And now I'm here. I'm hungry, so.. bye.

sincerely yours, mae.

chooot chooot.

2009-07-27T14:23:00.003+10:00

xochilt and tina came over on thursday. then again on friday. we gambled and sung and ate pizza and cabra. i have no idea what i did on saturday, shocking memory, rofl. on sunday, yesterday, we went city. k and caps. it was alright. i got elbowed in the face by a guy playing ddr, he idn't even apologize! gosh. we headed back to the trainstation and me and david missed the train, coincedence? i think not! we weren't talking that day because apparently he was pissed at me and he doesn't know why. the train was heading off and the others were laughing we waited for the next train it took ages. on the train i slept on david and by the time we got back to cabra it was dark. we then went to tg. stayed there for a bit. then david walked me to john st. i hugged and kissed him goodbye. then i walked up. my parents were standing right there :| i don't know if they saw me or not. but i'm grounded once again rofl! got home, ate watched tv and fell asleep around 10, woke up at 11;30 by davids call, and we talked for 1.5 hours. then i went to sleep. and today is monday! school tomorrow, oh nu :( holidays went by so fast. i'm gonna be a good girl so i can go out more, hopefully.

1, 2, 3, 4, I declare a thumb war!

2009-07-21T20:44:00.001+10:00

5, 6, 7, 8, I use this hand to ma-stur-bate!
I miss david :(

2009-07-17T19:17:00.001+10:00

I want to talk to you, but then again..

If you wanted to talk to me, you would.

arghhhhh.

2009-07-17T11:38:00.001+10:00

i don't know what to do :|
i'm having second thoughts about us again.
is it coming to an end? ..
someone tell me where this is going, cause i dont know where this is going.
xo, mae.

knocking on the wrong door.

2009-07-11T21:24:00.002+10:00

Well today I woke up, went on net for a bit. and despite the fact that my daddy grounded me 'forever' i went and had a shower and got ready to go to xochilt's birthday outting. so i needed money to go and i was scared to ask for money so i kept walking up and down till my dad asked me, 'what you doing?', my mum replied to him and said 'she's waiting for her friend to pick her up so she could go out. theres 20$ in my bag.' yay! problem solved. xochilt came 10 minutes later and we went to pick up cathy. we got there and xochilt went to knock on the door. chilly was knocking on some randoms door for like 5 minutes then cathy came out from another house. roflmao! how embarrassing. then this lady came out from the door chilly was knocking on, xochilt just walked away scratching her head, ROFLMAO. then we headed to mounties. i met xochilts friend and we met up with hang. we ate then cathy had to go. then we went to the arcade place. played DDR, it was so gay.. full fked up and shit bro, cost $5 too! for 3 rounds! omgg. then we played pool. i vs'd hang and i won! :D yay. suprising coz i've never played. we wanted to ddr so we headed back to cabra, fuck bruno. xochilts dad dropped us off at cabra and when we got out of the car, saw the hottest guy out F5! omg. we went tg. cabra was so dull. tg was empty. then we noticed there was no DDR or PUMP! :( so we played pool since no one was there. a little boy came and asked if he could play with us so we let him. then a bunch of guys came and played next to us. then all this shit happened. then we decided to go hangs house to play. trained it there. me and hang played pool and xochilt played the guitar for us. we did that till like 6:30 then we tried finding the chords for bubbly so i could play the keyboard, chilly the guitar. then around 7 xochilts dad came, we headed for maccers and then xochilts dad dropped me off.

overall today was a fun day. fucking haaaaaaaaalair-rious!
so were deciding to have a movie marathon at my house on monday since im not aloud out. and yeah. tmrs me and davids one month and i dont think im aloud out.
xo, mae.

FREAK TONIGHT.

2009-07-09T20:11:00.002+10:00

Israel came today :$
i asked him for a big big hug and i got it :D
and i took photos with him, he put his arm around me :$
and i put my arm around his waist! :$:$
and i squeezed someones ass :$
then i saw david :D
WHAT A LOVELY DAY.
besides the fact that i got letter sent home.
and my brother saw my report.
ALL FUCKING GOOD :D
and ill edit this soon with pictures :)
xo, mae.

UPDATE OF WHO I AM.

2009-07-04T15:41:00.006+10:00

MAILIN NGUYEN | CHS>9 | VIET | MAY3RD95.
I am different, weird. I get amazed by the littlest things. I laugh at the littlest things. Its very easy to make me happy. I appreciate everything in my life and i don't regret anything, because i believe everything happens for a reason and a door has to close for a new door to open. I live life by qoutes and i'm looking forward to the future. I believe in 10 years time there will be flying cars. I'm some what of a loser, lol! I'm a bi-polar, add cunt. Sometimes i'm really sad and emo and sometimes i'm really happy and out of it, and i can change moods in a split second. I like suprises and i'm scared of the dark. I'm still scared of my own house. I get scared of anything that comes out of no where. I don't fall in and out of love very easily. I like being out with friends. I try to be happy with what i have because when i didn't have it, that was what i wanted. Decisions are hard for me coz i want it to benefit others as well as myself. I'm self contious. I don't have someone i look uo too. I make myself, i'd rather be different then fit it. You can tell alot about people by looking at their shoes, who they are, where have they been and all that. And if you look into someones iPod you can tell alot about them. My life has more of the downs then ups, but its getting better. My life is pretty full-on and i love it. I am Mae, this is me.

love:

music: I cannot live without music. I listen to it when i shower, sleep, everything.
my room: this is a place where i can be myself. i love it.
family: daddy, mom and brotherzz. Piss me off like shit, but i'm thankful.
friends: my life would be a complete trainwreck if i didn't have any of them. their all fucking sluts. lol! from tina, xochilt, hang to all them b'baller dudes. we are "slutville". Thankyou.
David Huynh: Your somewhat like MY hero. You saved me from heartbreak and i'm so glad i met you (thank you steven :D ) I love you david, my girlfriend :)
banananana ice-cream: this shit makes me so happy, lol!
pasta & V: a perfect dinner, lol!
my webslider and ds: keep me from thinking.

hate:

I hate selfish sluts, people who arn't considerate of others feelings, i hate seafood and i hate unfaithful dickheads. i hate alot of other stuff too, but this is all i could think of, lol.

if your up to here, wow. bored stalker cunt, lol!
xo, mae.

River flows in you. Doo-do dooo do-do.

2009-07-02T20:41:00.002+10:00

I'm feeling this constant sadness.
I miss you.
I gave Rocky advice today with how to deal, and yet, i'm not taking them. I'll eventually get over it. Fuck man, I seriously need a diary.
xo, mae.

I want it.

2009-07-01T19:50:00.005+10:00

coz i'm dying inside, and no one knows.
no one can see that fake smile i pull.
why do i keep running from the truth all i ever think about is you.
only one person knows how i feel, and they ain't even there anymore.

this shit is deserted bro. so thats why im writing like its my diary.

xo, mae.

Tribute.

2009-06-27T16:05:00.002+10:00

Michael Jackson.
King of pop.
I'm sorry. I laughed when Xochilt told me you died. I'm sorry.
Everyone misjudged you. You did what you loved, and you loved what you did even when people were having their own thoughts. You were an inspirational person, if it wasn't for you people would be on their couches. You are one of those people, people will never forget. I don't know why but I'm so sad about this :(

Badluck for the other lady who died on this day. What a bad day to die on. Rest in peace Farrah Fawcett.
xo, mae.

R.i.p Michael Jackson.

2009-06-26T19:40:00.003+10:00

The king of pop died today, i'd like to wish him.. peace in his rest? LOL :( Rest in peace Michael Jackson.

I'd also like to wish Hang and Johnny 3 months!

Omg, i got done today bro. jigged school, went cabra got caught by cops, roflmao. had an arvo and came home dad told me off and grounded me until who knows. no more going out :( no more seeing david D: fking ms. goodwin, SUCK MY DICK. xo, mae.

I've got cramps! nuuu.

2009-06-25T18:59:00.003+10:00

hi. haven't blogged for ages. no one does. nothings been happening lately. stupid cold weather and period pain, grr. i'm gonna be moody for the next three days. i've been breaking out a lot lately too! omg, bad day :(

well today was funny, laughed so much. "i'm beached iz brew" too hangs fat laugh, LOL.end of school, had to walk michaels way home today, full had to piss too. we had a confession talk, LOL. before that, i saw david, only for a minute then he went, how sad. i've realized i love him alot and he means alot to me, and it would be terrible if i lost him. i've been missing him alot lately too. linda told me something funny about him today, LOL. and i know something funny about linda vu. WHY?! HAHAGAGA.

oh yeah, i changed my skin :D after an hour of searching. i found this nice one too but it didn't work. so i used this one, this one was being a bitch too but i figured it out because i'm genius babe.

well, i find myself missing david again. and these cramps are pissing me off. i need a panadol. bye.

xo, mae.

I shouldn’t have let go, I should’ve held on tighter.

2009-06-14T16:04:00.004+10:00

hello there. so i've just finished reading "conversations between us" by solangel.. and it was fucking great! :D I'd say its better then twilight, way better then twilight. but the ending is disappointing and very sad. but i recommend you to read it :) it made me cry. but it taught me something. you can't really trust anyone, even if you've been through so much shit with them. If this story was true, fuck, i thought i had it bad, LOL. really really sad. another good fan fiction was my ping pong boy. that was also good, i can't really remember after reading cbu. cbu is so long, 600 pages or something. i asked my brother if he could print it for me :D i managed to finish it in 2 days? something like that. i will now read An Epitome Of Simplicity, which i also have on paper. Then I will read all Solangels fan fictions :D THEN I WILL FIND MORREEEEEE AND MOREE!

My Pingpong boy.
Conversations between us.
An Epitome Of Simplicity.
Banana Pancakes.
The Joy Of being Happy.
The Ardor Series.
Love bugged.

I love fanfictions!
xo, mae.

"maeeeeee, will you be my gf?"

2009-06-13T14:52:00.004+10:00

so yesterday was a normal day, with twist and turns. went school. david came to pick me up. went to the little park and we hugged for like 30 minutes and i kept saying i needed to go but he wouldnt let go. i could feel his heart beating really fast. i didn't know what was happening. he kept laughing that retard. then he was like "maeee, i love youu." i was like ok, i'm going how. he didn't let go, then like 10 minutes later he was like "maeeeeee, will you be my gf?" I said "no, just jok!, yes.". I know, lame. we hugged one last time and i went, when he was about twenty feet away i screamed out pussy, LOL. so he wouldn't hit me or something. it was indeed a beautiful day like david said between our hugs. the sky was bright blue and only a few clouds. the sun was very shiny and setting. we were standing next to an autumn tree, the trees with falling leaves? the orange ones yeahhh. yeah, all that time johnny was waiting for david, LOL.

12th June 2009.
I love David Huy Huynh.
AND,
I would Like to wish Brendan "Hot" Bui a very happy birthday! :D
xo, mae.

help me run away

2009-06-10T19:17:00.003+10:00

I don't know what to do.
I don't know what I want.
I don't know who I love.
I don't know who I can trust.
But I know I wanna escape.

Cause I can't breathe, when I see you. I can't speak, when you call. I can't stand the thought of losing you, anymore. I can't look, when I see you around him at all. But, I wont give up on you baby, you're worth fighting for.
xo, mae.

I WANNA GTFO

2009-06-09T18:42:00.003+10:00

AND I SWEAR MY LIFE IS FKING UP AGIAN.
MY MUMS SUCH A FUCKING PISS OFF!
CAN'T SHE JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP FOR ONCE.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
and i swear to god, i want to runaway from all this
I WANNA BE FUCKING ALONE!!!!!!!

2009-06-08T19:27:00.007+10:00

WELL TODAY.

i baked cookies in the morning! it was fail. then i netted for a while, then i went to see david (yay!) stayed with him till 4. then i went shops, with dad. came home went shops with brother bought food to make pizza and bannananana cupcakes! :D right now i'm waiting for them to get ready! so excited :D i'll put a picture later. overall today was a good day, because i saw david :D now ciao!

xo, mae.

I want this, and that.

2009-06-07T23:12:00.006+10:00

I'm like bored off my nuts.

So yeah. My wishlist:
LG stereo system ($350), iTouch ($340), any hair straightener ($60-$150)

and yeah. I wanna paint my room to either, hot pink, or lime green. and i also want plates, for my teeth. and i want to be a good girl.
xo, mae.

Second thoughts about us.

2009-06-07T22:37:00.003+10:00

What a fucking boring day. I feel like I'm about to die or something. I've got this huge bruise (i think) on my knee, i don't know how i got it, but its fking killing me. you know what i just realized? I'm really moody on weekends if I'm not with anyone. which is the case today.

well, i'm having second thoughts about us.
we hardly ever talk anymore.
not on msn or phone.
i wonder if you still like me ;o
but y'know, shit happens ay.
life goes on,
I love you David Huynh.
A lot.
When I say a lot, I mean it.
I don't even know why i'm typing this here
ROFLMAO, you ain't even gonna read it.
I think life is slipping back to the old ways again :(
I don't wait it tooooo!
i'm weak, but i will fight.
i'm inpatient, but i'll wait.
xo, mae.

my lazy sundays.

2009-06-07T17:48:00.003+10:00

well today was boring!
I didn't do anything.
I found out what Pierre said to Xochilt.
Like WHAT THE FUCK?!
His gonna pay, hard.
Well, holiday Monday tomorrow :)
I want to see David :(
I miss him like CRAZY!
xo, mae.

2009-06-07T12:40:00.008+10:00

So yesterday (6th June 2009) ...

I woke up at like.. 8:30 so I could clean the house, i ate and watched TV (tiger cruise). at around 10:30. I went to have a shower. Got ready and waited for Tina to come. She was late 40 minutes.. my brother also wanted me to come with him to buy a play station. so i brang Tina along too. we went to livo. shopped around. omg, i saw this gumball candy corner shop thing. it was so cool! i bought a huge ass gobstopper :D my brother bought the ps3. now we have 2. since my brothers don't like sharing, what a waste of money. we explored livo, then around 4 my brother dropped us off at cabra. chilly came. cindeey and all was also there. then hang came in with bhb. we played DDR and pump. then Tina wanted to go. so we went to woolys to buy food. drinks, lollies, baking stuff and yeah. chilly also taxed foundation, it was so mad, LOL, a mirror flips out. we were so fascinated we full started screaming and jumping LOL. i taxed a eyeliner for Tina and she didn't even thank me, tuh! we then headed for my house. we walked pretty slow. we decided to go through the school. hang was like i'm gonna go look in the toilets. and we walked off. we were like lets wait for her she has our drinks ROFLMAO. we kept walking and she didn't come out.. we thought she was tricking us so we decided to keep walking and hide behind a building. by then me & chilly really needed to go to the toilet. she still hasn't came out. we got scared so we decided to go back for her then she came out LOL fail! so we continued walking. then we tried to run away from hang but she didn't even chase us LOLOL. the bate gate was locked so we had to slide under the gate. xochilt climbed it and struggled LOL. we saw the little black dog and we played with it :D it was so funny and cute. we finally got home. we ordered pizza. we put on lesbian vampire killers in my mums room. then mum came up. so we had to go down. the pizza came and we turned off all the lights and ate and watched the movie. the movie was so stupid! but it was funny, it wasn't even scary! and like.. im a little pussy. we finished watching it. then we decided to do some stuff. then we came back, talked for an hour then chilly and tinas dads came, by then it was like around 8. huy and peter wanted to come but no. LOL. me and hang decided to bake cupcakes LOL. we didn't have butter, so my brother took us to woolys to buy butter. we ended up buying heaps more stuff LOL. we got home and baked the cupcakes, it was full fail! but it was nice looked like a cake ROFL. I made a pretty one for hangs mum so she wouldn't get angry. i was planning to personally deliver it . we cleaned up then brother drove hang home. we got to hangs house and i came to the door to personally deliver to cupcake. to bad hangs sister got the door, LOL.

overall, yesterday was so far the best day of 09.
we all agreed to never forget this day, LOL
If you were there you would understand :D
I love these chicks. They make life worth-while.
Tina, Xochilt & Hang.

- - -
well today i don't think i'll be doing anything.
i miss david, alot :(
well i'm gonna go have a shower now.
xo, mae.

foolishness.

2009-06-04T18:12:00.006+10:00

so today i went to school :D
i didn't do much work.
i wanted the day to end.
so david could walk me home.
the day came onto an end.
i walked to front gate.
i received a message saying:
i cant make it today, david.
very niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiice.
- - - - - - -

i also took a picture with eugene's glasses in maths.
xo, mae.

Be healthy, suck a dick!

2009-06-03T18:55:00.004+10:00

According to recent studies, blowjobs are the healthiest breakfast because they come with 1 sausage, 2 nuts and a shot of protein shake. Stay healthy. Suck a dick!

Bad weather.

2009-06-03T17:44:00.002+10:00

So today, i went to school dry.
I came home soaking wet.
The end.
xo, mae.
btw, i love david huynh. alot.

The pass few weekends.

2009-06-03T16:10:00.006+10:00

31st May 2009. Sunday:
Happy Birthday Thanh Le!
me and xochilt went to parra in the morning to go shopping. we went to cabra, bought train tickets. then we went to tg, played a game of pump and 1 round of ddr, noticing that our train is coming. we missed it, ROFL. then we had to wait another 30 minutes for the next train. so we decided to go submerge. i bought a mossimo bra, 35$ f5. we walked back to ts. i realized i didn't have my train ticket anymore, so i had to buy a new one. we went to parra shopped around and shit bought clothes. xochilt taxed new makeup and it wasn't in her tone. lolol. we were full starving and we wanted to save our bellies for thanhs. but then... we got really hungry, so we ate maccers. at 3 something we headed back for cabra. called david to come but he took his sweet ass time coming, so we went off to thanhs. then half way up joohn st, he called, and said where are you. roflmao. we also took our sweet ass time getting to thanhs. we didn't know where his house was so vanny came and got us from back gate. i took the bike and made vanny and xochilt walk :D it was so far from back gate if you walked, hahah! there was a big jumping castle out front. we ate, played cards. then me and xochilt went to play on the jumping castle. i swear it felt like i was on xtc. it was full fun. i miss it now! then everyone came on, we played and played till 8, then me, xochilt and tina headed back to my house. then yeah...

30th May 2009. Saturday:
I stayed home in the morning, then around 1ish, me and brother went shopping. I was looking for jeans at loose threads and i couldn't find any. instead my brother got a pair of lee jeans! pshhh. i saw this really nice Elwood hoodie but yeah brother said it was a rip off. then we went to submerge, i ended up buying a onitsuka tiger jacket there, it was 100$. then i went home.

23rd May 2009. Saturday:
That day my dad came back. We had a party. I decided to invite friends over too. I called Xochilt, Tina, Hang, Linda Vu, Sean, David & johnny over. We ate, took photos and yeah. It was a fun day. Welcome back daddy, good to have you back agian.
xo, mae.

hi, I'm a homo

2009-05-23T17:11:00.002+10:00

today I realised that I love Linda because she rocks :D

2009-05-18T11:08:00.006+10:00

So, yesterday was my birthday outing. We all met up at tg. We played ddr/pump till everyone came. Then we headed to mt to eat. On our way there Johnny was singing with pumped up music (how embarassing) lol! & a bird shited on tina! HAHA, it was full white and watery. Me and Peter were full laughing, she threatened to bash me :( we (me and peter) were just about to vomit, lol! my eyes were full teary. that shit could of got me tho. i was standing right next to her, because she was strangling me. karmaa! we then arrived at mt, we played a few rounds of cards and we ordered food. jenny ate alot :O like alot, it was so funny. then we got out the cake, it was choclate, it was like my last years cake but this was only smaller, lol! theres a picture of it below :D we payed and went back to tg. we played pump/ddr again. I started feeling really hot, and i got a headache and a sore throat, i swear it was hell! I went outside with david and he said i had swine flu :( so i coughed on him :) then i started feeling really cold again so we went back in, then i started acting retarded. i started feeling really really sick. my mum called and i had to go, david walked me half way then we said bye :( then i met my mum on john st, we went to buy food then we headed home. i pee'd then headed for the bed. when i got in i couldn't move coz it hurt to much, so i just layed there and slept. it was dfficult to breathe. it was really really hot and i was sweating like hell, but if i took my blanket off i would freeze. i decided to call david and he teased me. we talked then he had to go somewhere. i just laid there, i screamed for my mum but she didn't heaar me, lol! i was calling her for like 10 minutes. then i decided to call her room phone with my room phone! isn't that awesome? :o i asked her to bring me medicine, she made me eat rice :( i could hardly get up, eventually i did took me like 5 minutes to properly sit up, but i only slid back down, so i just stayed like that. i ate like 3 spoons and got tired. my brother came out of his room and he started laughing at me ;o then david called back we talked and i was feeling tired so yeah. tho i couldn't sleep, it was so hot! i was like .. on fire D: at like 3, i finally got my normal temperature back, i finally could get up, so i went to do a pee :D i still had a sore throat tho. then yeah.. here are the photos.

thanks for the cake :D

& thanks for the perfume tina :D

overall, thanks for the day everyone :D
tho, it was the shittest night of my life!
xo, mae.

Nothing at all.

2009-05-13T14:55:00.001+10:00

eh, nothings been happening, so yeah.
mae, xo.

Happy Mothers day.

2009-05-10T18:31:00.007+10:00

Happy Mothers day! ♥
'your a bitch sometimes, most of the time :D but i'm thankful for everything you've done, it's proberly gonna help me in life, not now, but later. You ain't gonna see this, so I don't know why I'm typing this here, ROFLMAO. I think my mums pregnant! LOL ☺

So, today I went out to cabra, with david, jenny, rocky, johnny, sean and marcus. Marcus (i think thats how you spell it) is so cute, lol! The guys taught him how to swear D: Sluts. After a while johnny and sean went back to johnnys house to get money but they never came back, lol. then jenny and marcus went, he gave us all a hug :D then me, rocky, rockys friend and david went to the park, we stayed there abit, they were eshing... me and david where talking then i pushed his head to the side and it full cracked and i thought he broke his neck, full scared the shit out of me, and he went along with it too, bloody bitch. me and david decided to go back to cabra to buy a mothers day card. We went to woolys, and i bumped into andrew, :). Both me and david bought cards. they were like $6.50 each! omgoshhh. LOL. we then went to tg, then i had to go, it was so sad. we went to buy chicken roll, and we asked for a pen too, so we could write in the cards, david let me write in the card for his mum, LOL. i wrote: happy mothers day mum, from david and mae, LOLOL. Yeah, kinda weird 'coz she ain't my mum but david told me too :D. then we both went our different ways.. LOL. came home, did homework, and now i'm here :D now i shall leave!
If you read the whole thing you are a bothered, bored cunt, LOL.
& I miss david, already, :(

mae, xo

Today, tonight.

2009-05-09T23:42:00.005+10:00

omg! so like yesterday, my brother decided to buy a boat kinda thing, sailing thing, lol! I asked him how much was it gonna be he was like $700. so today he went to buy it, he took like the whole day! When he came home, he was singing. I ran down to see what happen.

Brother: I'm going "boating", i'm going boating.
Me: *o_o"
Brother: I bought the boat.
Me: Is it?! How much?
Brother: Not much.
Me: How much?
Brother: $2200.
Me: WHAT!? *draw on the floor. Are you shittin' me?
Brother: Nope.
Me: Your shittin' me!

and so on, but like yeah, what a waste of money :(
And he can't even give me some money :(
Well i'm gonna take a ride in it one day :D

But overall today, I didn't do anything fun. Woke up early went somewhere with mum, ate mcdonalds, went home, net, net, net, missed david. and thats all, pretty shitty. but tomorrow i'll see david hopefully, yayers! and mothers day. i'll go buy something for mum tmr too. good day!

mae, xo.
p.s. i love david so much, i decided to take a picture,

.

Progress.

2009-05-09T14:11:00.005+10:00

2 hours later..

so like i finally fixed my blogspot, with jolines help.
thanks joline :D

i find it stupid how everything deletes when you change the skin, LOL. spent hours fixing it, then i find out it deletes everything when you change the skin, and i don't even like the skin! omg, why can't it be like bebo? D:
i'm gonna explore now. bye.
mae, xo.

I'm new to this.

2009-05-09T12:37:00.001+10:00

hmm, so I started this thing yesterday 'coz Linda told me to. I'm still here trying to figure out how to use this. It's so complicated brew! I need help :(

xo, mae.